Tink i do hope the time does come for you to explore your poetry, or anything else you feel drawn to...you must be in your early or mid forties by now, with small daughter...you will be doing PTA, etc. stuff for a while yet...in addition to your working life.
Truly one of my contemplations since I began this big exploration of the human condition 2017, based on hints and leads from you and Marianne, is...how can society shift itself to accommodate pursuit of human potential for all of us, to the benefit of all?
In England of some time ago, much of the remarkable scientific research was done by pastors; they had a guaranteed living from taxes in their parish, and leisure to pursue scientific knowledge. Otherwise, at present it is more and more, just the wealthy who receive the excellent education and other opportunities...the rest of us struggling with daily obligations and crises...
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I loved the novel by Elizabeth Goudge (actually have loved several of her books), this one titled GREEN DOLPHIN STREET...
Anyway, therein, she proposes a huge shift in public education, where the goal is for the unique potential of each child to be recognized and encouraged -- this of course in contrast to the present system, where people are trained for the purpose of filling someone else's needs...
You should have available to you a good forty-some years yet, and I hope you intentionally cultivate and nurture your own remarkable talents, just for the purpose of your own life satisfaction.