Is it normal to do and keep track of "Smudges"?

Question

Okay, let me explain here as best as I can.

What I call "Smudges" are something adult in nature and I really cannot say what they are here...unless the "Adult" category/section is added.  Let's just say they are the result of what happens whenever I give into my addiction problem.  Fill in the blanks.

Since 2010, I've been keeping track of each one I do and...well, the numbers are astronomical, to say the least.  Take a look at this image (if I can get it to post here) showing how many "Smudges" I've done from the beginning of 2010 to February 9, 2016.

Answer 1

Are you talking about Masturbation David ?

Oh yeah  btw  I'm not backwards in coming forwards , in case you hadn't noticed  

Answer 2

@ Serenity
Yep...but, the "Smudges" themselves are the result of that.  I was afraid to put that in my question because I was worried about being banned.

Answer 3

@ David   Just asked my fella why you called it that and he said it's because Guys rub one out..........I should of realized that.

Masturbation is Healthy but counting and recording every time you do is a little Obsessive and maybe you need to step back and try to remember why
you started counting.

Don't worry about being Banned ok  :)
 

Answer 4

My problem is that I'm addicted to it.  Masturbation is healthy as long as it doesn't become obsessive, which mine has long since become.  To have that many in those years is incredibly obsessive.

As for the reason I started counting, it's because I started noticing I was becoming obsessive in 2009, though I may have started this long before then.  I decided that, starting with 2010, I would keep track of how many times I do it.

You see, I'm single, lonely, have other bad problems going on with me, and I'm missing out on life.  So, I turn to my addiction as my only temporary escape from everything else.  I know what would help me keep my addiction down to a minimum, but whenever I bring up the solutions, I always get dismissed and people tell me things that they think works best.  Unfortunately, it always backfires and I do it more because they don't understand why their solutions don't work on me.