Sometimes it feels like that and that makes me lose hope, makes me weaker, sadder and more upset. I just want to try to put a lot effort into something and someone but it needs more than just one partner for being able to do it :´( I don´t want to give up but sometimes I just want to go to my bed and just cry. I just feel hopeless when I´m planning something but then become disappointed because of the other one. But when I really want something I don´t give up even if it´s very hard since the person is still worth it.